*a girl's diary*

stars still shine: 7:41 PM

Bliss [Saturday, August 12, 2006]

These past few days it was all about my exams until this morning, but this afternoon though we still have two remaining exams I went to SM for "sweetheart"'s birthday celebration. I was late since I came all the way from Antipolo yet we still had a great time. There were also other people with us, namely Patrick A., Julius, Pico. They were really a great bunch to go with. Though I wasn't able to bond much with Julius, sayang. The guys were already finish eating lunch when I got there, so we went to Starubucks and "sweetheart" bought me a Mocha Frap (Grande) and a slice of Oreo Cheesecake (I sooo love cheesecakes! I have alot of memories from cheesecakes!). We stayed in Starbucks for awhile, just until I finish my slice of cheesecake. Then after we went to the arcade (Time Zone), and along the way, when the other three guys were ahead of "sweetheart" and me, I gave him his birthday letter and then after few more steps, I saw Maita. hahaha :) small world. So Maita and I talked for a few seconds and then we went na to the arcade. When we got there, we played the dance ek ek (ung sa hands), air hockey, basketball, mariokart, childgames, and alot more! I was able to defeat "sweetheart" in air hockey (hahaha :P beh.). Then we played basketball, unfortunately we lost to Patrick and Pico, twice (ouch, I know). Then Pico was playing this game, I do not know what is called but its like collapse. While Pico was playing I was sitting on the chair beside him, then "sweetheart" was in the middle, behind us. We were watching and at the same time helping him, then I already feel sleepy (I wasn't able to get enough sleep and rest since it was exams) and my head was resting in his right shoulder while we we are talking. Then after that we went to the picture booth, so we can have a Picture as a group. I was beside "sweetheart" the whole time, and then when we were already choosing the pic and designing it, his arm was around me and vice versa. That was bliss. Then after the group pic, "sweetheart" and I went for another round in the picture booth, this time it was only the two of us, but there was a time Pico joined us. The whole time we were inside the picture booth, our arms were around eachother. Then when we were already designing and choosing my head was laying on his shoulder the whole time. When we got the pic, "sweetheart" cut it in half, then he also gave one copy to Pico. While we were waiting for Patrick's turn in the dance ek ek(hands) "sweetheart", me and Pico are in the side since there were alot of people around the dance ek ek. While standing there, my head was in "sweetheart"'s shoulder and my hand was in my side then nka "sukbit" ung arm ko sa arm niya then nag hold kami ng hands at first hold lang, then it was entwined na. Our hands were entwined for some time (hahaha:D kilig. mehnnnn. hahaha. bkit ako ganito dito.) then when the Mariokart and the dance ek ek was already available for use, we played again. Then Julius and Patrick went to the other side and played a game, i do not know what you call it. While waiting Pico, "sweetheart" and me are sitting on a "bench" near them. Around 3:30, it was time for me to go home. The guys went with me to the taxi bay, they waited until I was able to get a taxi. So we said our goodbyes and I went na inside the taxi and of I go home. "sweetheart" doodled down the plate number of the taxi i was in (thank you!). Then that was it. That was my day. Well "sweetheart" it was fun. That was such bliss. I cannot believe that this post is soooo detailed. hahaha :D well cge gtg, its late.

Rica

P.S please do not assume things. Though its up to you, whether to conclude na kami nga or hindi, but I will leave you a clue..... We are not rushing things....we are taking our time..... take things slow.... ika nga ng iba.

"your hand fit perfectly in mine"

stars still shine: 11:30 PM

Someone's Birthday [Wednesday, August 09, 2006]

Hey! today is someone's birthday. hahaha :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAN!!!
*huuuuuggggg*

hahaha :D
I hope you had a wonderful time today. Hope to see you this saturday.

sige gtg na po. Still have to study for CLE and Health exam.

Rica

stars still shine: 7:39 PM

Problematic Day [Tuesday, August 08, 2006]

Well the day as I could say was a problematic one. I just took my algebra and geometry exam this afternoon. Algebra was fine yet the geom exam...... no comment. Well "sweetheart" and I experienced some problems this past two days. I won't expound what those problems are, its for me and "sweetheart" to know. Well we talked about it and concluded to just forget everything that have happened the past two days. I miss you too "sweetheart"!!! hahaha. tsk. I bet flattered ka. hahaha :P Tapos, "sweetheart" even invited me to go out. He invited me to go to Gateway, maybe 2 weeks from now. Ofcourse I said, yes. hahaha :D an saya. though there are problems within me. It is "sweetheart's" 16th birthday tom. I'am sooooo excited. Life for me now are full of blessings.

Rica

"Hope the days will pass so fast ,until the day we set foot are eyes on each other once again"

stars still shine: 8:49 PM

Mr. Teddy Bear [Sunday, August 06, 2006]

We had a fight. That I know. It was a petty one, if you look at it in others point of view. You told me to read your multiply blog, I expected to see a sorry note. Then I got home, opened the pc and went online. When I read your blog, I was shocked. The title itself got me thinking, what could this be all about. So I read through it, and I was speechless. I didn't know how I should react. There were other things bothering my mind that time. I didn't expect it to be that. Then I remembered what you said earlier "Highlight everything to see what you can't see", so I highlightened everything and there it said at the bottom "time is constant...the teddy bear is waiting" Then we got to talk over the phone, and it was a great phone conversation. you told me you missed me, and I was denying it. hahaha :D seriously, I do not know why im posting this things here, when I know very well you always read my blog. hahaha :D Then we made plans to watch a Sibol Production. The whole conversation, you kept me thinking how and when will you give the teddy bear. Well, it is still a mystery to me how you will give it. Any how, I have to go. I need to finish everything so that later I will be free to use the phone. hahaha :D

Rica

"I' am done waiting. You started what you have to start. Now you will wait for the answer I will give. It will be long, but I hope you will wait."

stars still shine: 1:02 PM

Class Encounter [Thursday, August 03, 2006]

We just had our class encounter. I admit it was fun, yet there were parts that are still questionable. I still need to talk with the people/person concerned. There is something else in my mind as well, besides the exam and quiz we will have tom. Well this is all. I have to go..... still have to study for our Chemistry exam and World History quiz.

Rica

stars still shine: 7:43 PM

Birthdays! [Friday, July 28, 2006]

I just got home from Eastwood, we celebrated Pauline M. and Milcah’s birthday!

Happy 16th birthday for the both you! I wasn’t able to give you my birthday message so I’ll take this opportunity to do so.

Pauline,

This is the second time we became classmates, the first was last year. Dami na natin pinagsamahan at sana mas madami pa tayong pagsamahan. Your 16th year will be blast. More promising experiences and challenges are about to come you way. Always remember that we are just here for you. Happy Birthday!

Milcah,

Hey! Hahaha :D Though hindi na tayo classmates, I’ am still here. Nandito parin and barkada. Though we do not spend as much time like before still were here. Now your 16 like me. We are getting older and more mature. Along with this are new challenges and a promising future. Always do your best and every painful experience has its own reason. I hope in the future we will still be friends. Happy Birthday once again!

Well sige up to here na lng.

Rica

stars still shine: 11:49 PM

Secrets..... now revealed. [Wednesday, July 26, 2006]

We've known eachother for quite a while now and our friendship had gone a long way. No one ever thought that we'll have something. Despite our rules and policies we've implented on our selves, we still disregarded that. Now we both know how the other feels. It is such a happy feeling, when the you like also likes you. I still cannot get rid the mysterious smile on face because of all that happened. One thing led to the other until all or most of the secrets were spilled out. Now we're in the middle, we both don't know where it will lead us. I admit I'am scared of what may happen and you know this. Well I'll leave it here for now.

P.S sorry kung mali mali ung spelling and grammar nung previous post ko.

Rica

"All this time, thing were just the same for the both of us"

stars still shine: 10:50 PM

Rainy Day [Sunday, July 23, 2006]

Hey, this day had been a rainy one. The perfect environment to think. I will take this opportunity to pour out my emotions, something i cannot tell in front of you. You now know how I feel, and I would just like to tell you that I won't forever wait. Time will come for me to decide wether I'll wait or move on. I'am not threatining, I'am simply just reminding you. I would like to take this opportunity to thank you, for your thoughtfullness, sweetness and especially for being sooo patient with me. Well I will leave it here for now.

"In every person's life, time will come to decide what path to take, what direction to follow. Wether that person like to or not, one must do so."

Rica

stars still shine: 3:20 PM

It hurts. [Saturday, July 22, 2006]

I woke up late this morning, around 8 i think. For some, that wouldn't be late but I should have woke up by 7 since I still have to go to katipunan for my tutor. So I prepared... and all. Then when I was there I escaped and went to ateneo. To pay a visit to some of my AFC friends. Then I met with someone in the Eagle Gym and we talked. So there. One word to describe everything that happened in katipunan was OUCH. Well I'll leave it for now.

"Truth always and forever will hurt."

Rica

stars still shine: 4:33 PM

Just Now [Friday, July 21, 2006]

Its been so long since I last posted. A lot of things have happened and I know more will. Well i do not know what came to me and I suddenly decided to post something. I guess I just really need something on where I can pour out my emotions. Right now I'am just afraid. I won't say why but I'am dreading it. I guess I can also say that im confuse, though a lot of things are going on. I'am the AFS Secretary, Food and Drinks Asst Com head and I'm in my junior year. I have the positions I want. I have my friends but still I feel sad and as if something is not right. Something is missing and I don't know what it is. Well you could say I have something to be happy about, but stil. Well I will leave it here for now. I need to go, but I'll leave something.

"A few more hours and a new day will start again. The sun will rise and then will come the words I'am dreading to hear and say."

Rica

stars still shine: 10:40 PM

Article..... [Wednesday, April 05, 2006]

I got this article from peyups.com and its great.

Blog entry
by: xeanthee
http://www.peyups.com/article.khtml?sid=4204
Alam mo ba na nagulat ako nung araw na tinawag mo akong bestfriend? Leche. Sawang sawa na ako sa bestfriend bestfriend na yan! Huling beses na nagkaroon ako ng "bestfriend”, napahamak lang ang puso ko. Nasira pa ang isang pagkakaibigang itinatangi ko. Saka, heller!

May bestfriend na kaya ako!
May sikreto akong aaminin sa’yo…
Mayroong nangyaring hindi mo alam…
Itong isang lihim, itinagong kay tagal…

Ayokong sirain kung anuman ang meron tayo.
Matagal-tagal na rin kasi tayong magkaibigan noh!

Alam mo ba na nagulat ako nung araw na tinawag mo akong bestfriend? Leche. Sawang sawa na ako sa bestfriend bestfriend na yan! Huling beses na nagkaroon ako ng "bestfriend”, napahamak lang ang puso ko. Nasira pa ang isang pagkakaibigang itinatangi ko. Saka, heller!

May bestfriend na kaya ako!
Di ko noon nakayang ipadama sayo… Ang nararamdaman ng pusong ito…
Hindi ko naman kasi ineexpect na meron akong mararamdaman. Ika ko nga, i-deny hangga’t kaya. Feeling ko hindi pa ako handa. Feeling ko nalungkot lang ako, na kinailangan ko lang ng makakasama. Makulit ka kasi, jologs din. Mapang-asar pero malambing. Malay ko bang darating sa punto na ikaw ay isa sa mga iilang dahilang nagpapangiti sa akin at nagkukumpleto ng araw ko?
Di ko alam kung ano ang nangyari… Damdamin ko sayo’y hindi ko nasabi…
Humingi ako ng sign. Sabi ko dati hindi na ako naniniwala sa soulmates, sa fate at destiny eklavu na iyan pero hayun ako, eengot-engot na nagmakaawa sa kalangitang pagbigyan ako sa kahilingan ko. Tatlong beses akong humiling, tatlong beses rin ako sinagot.
At hanggang ngayon, naaalala pa…
I got what I asked for and guess what? Nasaktan ako.
Masakit kasi kahit papaano umasa na rin ako. Mahirap balewalain ang boses sa utak kong nagsasabing kalimutan ko na lang kung anuman itong nararamdaman ko kasi sobrang imposible na kaya mong suklian ito.
Pride? Siguro.
Nakanaman kasi. Bakit ang labo mo? Bakit ang dami mo nang sinabi pero hindi mo naman pinatunayan? Sobrang inconsistent mo. Sana ginalingan mo na din ang pagtiming para sana ayos lahat ngayon.
Bad trip talaga. Sawi talaga siguro ako.
Hay. I guess it just wasn’t meant to be.
Muntik na kitang minahal…
* * * * * * *This article is from Peyups.com - The UP Online CommunityPlease include the author's name and the source of this article when copying or sending this article.

stars still shine: 4:43 AM

AFC [Tuesday, April 04, 2006]

hello! wahehehe :D afc was great! I met alot of people in my first day. I'am with Therese, Pauline A., Sam, Ikay, and Mica. Though Mica, Ikay and Sam are part of the advance group. ang aming coaches ay sina Coach Jeff and Coach Hin. hehehe :D dam ko agad natutunan on my first day. and I also got a souvenir on my first day. hahaha :P cge up to here na lng muna!

Rica

stars still shine: 4:37 PM

The different Rica.... [Thursday, March 30, 2006]

HEy!

Last night..... I was just in eastwood again though not really for gimmick since before going to eastwood I was in Camp Aguinaldo/Crame... Gayle held a party! The party was great! It was fun! I met alot of new people! I mingled with different people. Sky Circuit Cry played! They were great! hahaha :D Gayle, Pauline M., Ikay, Therese, Cynch also played a couple of songs.... Though the party was great and all, I saw a side of me that I thought, I didn't have..... It was the "gago" side of me. If you read my previous post about the eastwood ek ek.. you'll understand this. SO there you know the sudden flow of memories in me when I last went to eastwood...... All the happy memories came back and flooded my mind last monday. Then during the party I heard this certain song that really made my mind explode because of all the memories. Well that was the cause of the "gago" side of me to show up! Well I drank 2 shots of whiskey (black label) and around 3 glasses of tequila (El Hombre). See...... Then after drink those two shots and 3 glasses I was already dizzy specially since I didn't eat anything before drinking... I was just dancing and dancing till I asked Sam to go with me outside..... and we just sat there and talked with some guys. Really I cried that night, for letting myself act like that. For hurting and ruining myself. I didn't know I have the tendency to get out of my goody-goody side. Well any way after that We already went to Eastwood.... I was still dizzy and my head hurts (super) when we got there Sam, Me, Therese, Joel, Carlo R., Charles, Torri went to Starbucks and went around while Isay and the others went to Blue Onion, I think... Well when we got to eastwood the memory didn't really bother me all that much. Well I'll leave it there for now....... till my next crusade!

Rica

stars still shine: 10:44 AM

Last night..... A trip back in the past. [Tuesday, March 28, 2006]

LAst night, I was just in eastwood with a couple of friends.... specifically Muriel, Sam, Lan, Ench, Jay-jay, and jay lou. I was the earliest among all of us (I'am not sure with Muriel, though).... I arrived there with my Ate, since she has work and all. Sam and I met as she was going up the elevator in front of Starbucks, then we went to Bayo, since Sam wanted to buy something from there. We met Lan after, he always get lost in Eastwood so we have to pick him up in Starbucks. Then we went to People are People, where Lan bought me a pair of pearly earings (dapat Starbucks dapat pero sabi ko yun na lang). Thanks for the libre! Then we went again to Bayo since Sam since she will going to pay na for the Bermuda shorts that she saw there. Then we went to Paengs since Ench, and his friends namely Jay-jay and Jay lou is there playing billiards. After that we went to buy tickets for the movie Glory Road. The next showing of the movie is still 8:30 so we ate dinner first. We went to Kenny Rogers for dinner. Then we met up with Muriel, and went na to the cinemas. The movie was great, nakakataw siya and even though this is embarrassing to say here...... sasabihin ko na..... ang ingay ingay namin ni Muriel while watching the movie.... kasi super nag rereact kami sa mga scenes......hahaha :D well any way after the movie we still had a little time to go to the arcade and play some games.... Lan went straight to the hands dance thingy(do not know what is called).... and ang lupet niya!!! Ench played the racing car game then Muriel, I and Sam played some ball Jay-jay and Joseph is just beside us playing ball as well .... we were suppose to play air hockey but the machine's not working. Well any way... we played a gun game and nakakatawa kasi super wala talaga akong pagasa sa ganun na game....hahaha :D hopeless ako...... Then Lan went home na before we were supposed to play air hockey then after we played the gun game Sam went home na then Ench and his friends, Then naghiwalay na kami ni Muriel sa may harap ng starbucks. In general the gimmick was great! I met new people! But as I was walking through the streets and walkways of eastwood.... as I walk and look around.... I remembered the last time I went there. The time that I spent with him. I remembered the time that we were supposed to watch a movie but we didn't able to since there were no tickets left. As I went to starbucks and waited for my drink, it went back to me the time that you were there beside me and bought me a Grande Mocha Frap. As I was walking to Mc Donalds, since its were my parents will pick me up.... I passed by Cheesecake Etc... I remembered as we were sitting on those sofa chairs by the window and talking and eating our favorie cake and all....... When my parents arrived with the same car that pick me up when we last went there, I remembered the stares that you received from my father and that you got scared of his masungit na face and all. When I went inside of the car... I was just quiet. not really making any kwento, like the usual.... I just sat and drank my mocha frap.... AS my father drive out of eastwood I just realized for myself that this place holds a lot of memories that is special for me... and everytime I will go here, I know... that those memories will haunt me again and again.... There will always be that trip back in the past wether I like it or not. I may move on, let go and forget but and still I know that I will be coming and still going out on gimmicks in eastwood so the memories will still linger there and will pile up. Until I finally decide to put it inside a chest and bury it deep inside my mind, to be preserved for a very long long time.

Rica

stars still shine: 1:13 PM

SuN BuRn [Sunday, March 19, 2006]

SUN BURN!!!

The party was great. Though there were A LOT of problems, still by the end of the night we got through most of them. Well what is important is that, we enjoyed the night and its our last day of school. I don't want to talk about the exams. It might backfire. Well most of the people I invited and I want to come, came to party. Though of course there will always be that someone I hoped came to the party, but he did not. If he did came to the party, I would have the truth to him, well destiny already decided for me and I must accept it. Well now, I do not cry or mourn over him any more (I'am glad about that) though I still remember him frequently. Well must move on. Its as simple as that.

Plansss for the summer............

*Ateneo Football Center (First module)

*SEP (Chemistry and Geometry)

*Learning to play the guitar

*Go to Anilao

*Visit Enchanted Kingdom

*Gimmick with friends!!!!

*Refresh the second year lessons for Algebra before school starts

*Celebrate my birthday early!!!

*Go back to Bicol

*Debate Camp

*Party!!!

Sooo far.. those are my plans for the summer...... weeeee

Well up to here na lang.......

Rica

stars still shine: 9:48 PM

ummmm bad me.... [Friday, March 10, 2006]

ok sooooo I just came from akiko's place and Isay is staying in my house for tonight!! weeeeeeeeee over night!!!!! hahaha :D mehnnnnn ang daming nangyari kanina na nakakatawa and napainom na naman ako. we drank gin w/ pepsi or sprite. medyo madami nga na inom ko kanina pero hindi ako na drunk or tipsy ha. Hindi ako pwede malasing ehhhh...... alam niyo naman....... anyway it was a fun night in general. We were able to party before the exams. hahaha hindi ako masyado maparty dbah, hahaha oh well sige hangang dito na lang. Isay is here kasi ehh, I have to make asikaso kung hindi pagagalitan ako.... aiii joke lng. gagamit din kasi si ISay ehh. sige baboooooooooosssshhhhhhhh

Rica

stars still shine: 12:10 AM

Worlds apart...... [Sunday, March 05, 2006]

No matter how much simmilarities we've got, no one can hide the facts that our world are lightyears apart, not even us, not even I. Even though people around us, strangers and friends, say that we look good together and etc... we cannot force the lies and truth that surrounds us. I must learn to accept and face the music. Eventually I must let go of my feelings and move on with my life. It is difficult and lonely but I must do it. There will be other people I will meet, though they won't be the same atleast I gave the opportunity a chance. As they say...... Life does not in darkness.

Rica

stars still shine: 8:45 PM

Going Through... [Saturday, March 04, 2006]

As I remember the sunset in Bauan.......

That short moment of watching the day end, reminds me of what I must face. The realities that I must admit and go through, no matter of how hard it will be and how lonely I'll be. There are really things in life that you must do. The sun setting is a sign that I must move on and forget my hopes and dreams of you. There will be night after the sunset, but I know there will still be the moon shining. Though the light coming from the moon will not be as bright as the sun, at least there is still light. For sure, the night will also end and there will be sunrise and abundance of light will be there again. I must wait and endure the coldness of night. Of course friends will be there, but not always. Its reality, and I must face and admit it. Time will come that I'll get ocer you and move on. Time will come when I will face you and see you as just my friend.........

Rica

stars still shine: 5:30 PM

Birthdays!! [Friday, March 03, 2006]

Happy birthday SAMMY!!!
so there it was sammy's birthday and though we were not able to spend time together during her birthday, I hope she had fun! Well any way, its official I' am next school year's Assumption Forensics Society Secretary. Then when I reached 4th yr, I will be the OH. Great? I know........ I just hope I will also be the Food and Drinks Asst. Com Head next school year. Well any way up to here na lang.....

Rica

stars still shine: 8:20 PM

a post..... [Monday, February 27, 2006]

I got this article from peyups.com and I really love it..... i hope you'll like it too

Going Senti

by: chillybean

http://www.peyups.com/article.khtml?sid=4182

Sobrang mahal kita, ayokong maging isang pagkakamali mo. I’m not afraid to be your girlfriend...I’m afraid to be your ex. Ikaw yung pinakahihintay ko buong buhay ko, aminado ko dun, pero I love you too much, it scares me. Hmm…lakas ng ulan. Ang lamig ng hangin. Mas masarap sana itong tagpong ito kung kasama kita, tapos nakaupo lang tayong magkatabi, umiinom ng kape. Kuwentuhan lang. Ganun yung napanood ko sa TV nung isang araw eh. Simpleng eksena pero kakakilig. Ang corny ko, no? Kasalanan mo ito eh! Certified cynical bitch na ako noon, tapos heto ka, biglang nagpapansin. . .

Naalala ko tuloy nung dati, lagi kita nakukuwento sa mga naging roomates ko, friends ko, at sa mga pinsan kong walang magawa kundi mang-usisa ng love life just for kicks. Eh wala naman akong love life nun, pero ewan ko kung bakit pangalan mo nababanggit ko. Tapos iisa reaction nila, “Bakit di naging kayo?” Naks! Feeling telenovela bida naman ako. Sinasabi ko na lang, hindi pwedeng maging tayo kasi totally opposite tayo ng ugali. Feeling ko pa nun, wala kang pakialam sa mundo. Pero fine, crush kita. Bakit, may masama ba?!

Nainis nga ako sayo nung 1st yr high school tayo kasi iniwasan mo ko bigla. Tinukso lang tayo, dinedma mo na ‘ko. Ouch yun, sobra! Pinagselosan ko ata buong mundo nun eh. Kasi lahat sila nginingitian mo, tapos ako nakukuntento na lang sa malayo, nakatulala habang di ka pa nakatingin. Pathetic, pero, weno ngayon? Marami rin naman akong ibang crushes nun. Mamatay ka sa inggit!

Ok na sana ko nun kaso lang, binigyan mo pa ko bigla ng mga regalo. Grabe, daig ko pa tumama sa lotto! Para nga akong laging kinikiliti kapag tinutukso nila tayo, kaso nagwo-walk out ka lang. Kainis! Feeling TGIS pa man din ako nun. . .

Kapag tinatawagan mo ko sa phone, pati yung palabas na hinintay ko ng buong linggo eh pinapalampas ko para lang marinig yung tanong mo tungkol sa isang subject nating di ko rin naman naiintindihan. Tapos siyang-siya akong makipag-alaskahan sayo. Kinarir ko nga PBA nun dahil masarap kang kaaway kapag magkalaban ang Purefoods ko at Gordons mo. . .

At tanda mo yung Grad ball? Isa yun, hanggang sa ngayon, sa pinakamasayang araw sa tanang buhay ko. Nung sinayaw mo ko, feeling ko nakahinto buong mundo, pinapanood tayo. Pero, grabe, wala namang nangyari pagkatapos nun. . .

Ang feeling ko talaga! Kaya nung graduation, I just made sure na ma-hug kita. Tapos sabi ko sa sarili ko, huling hirit ko na talaga yun. Kung bakit di kasi kita maligawan?!

Ngayong college, tinanggap ko na lang na wala na kong pag-asa sa iyo. Pero lagi pa rin kita naiisip. Crush pa rin kita. Eh sa di ko matiis eh! Hindi mo naman alam, ok lang yun. Sabi ko na lang, marami rin ako makikitang kapalit mo. Haha! Mamamatay ka ulit sa inggit. . .

Pero wagka, kapag may gimik ang barkada, it gave me an excuse para tawagan ka’t mang-usi sa lovelife mo, at the same time, crossing my fingers na sana sabihin mo “blanko." May kinuwento ka nga nun, basta nung sinabi mong type mo siya, nalaglag ako sa silya. Aray. Sana di na lang ako nagtanong. Di tuloy ako nakatulog buong gabi. . .

Tuwing nagtetext ka ng mga love quotes, lagpas pa yung ngiti ko sa mukha ko! Ilang linggo yun naka-store sa inbox ko, tapos kapag wala akong ginagawa, binabasa ko nang paulit-ulit, nagfi-feeling-feeling na you meant every word for me. Pero shempre, feeling lang. . .

Eh certified bobing naman talaga ako when it comes to love eh. Sinagot ko nga ang isang nilalang na di ko man lang lubusang kakilala. All along, akala ko tama, until I had the chance to let you know about it. That’s when I realized you still care. Anak ng pitong pating! Akala ko over na ako sa’yo! Lecheng pag-ibig yan, bakit kasi nauso? Buti na lang jerk si ex at di kami nagtagal. Mabait pa rin ang heaven. . .

Tapos, tapos, tapos, nagkita tayo ulit… Torture nga yung few hours before ako dumating sa bahay ng barkada natin, kasi may nag-text sa akin, nandun ka na raw. . .shet, gusto kong lumipad! Malakas pa sa radyo namin ang kabog ng dibdib ko. Tapos nung makita kita, ngiti mo pa lang, lumutang na ko sa ere. Astig ka talaga. Kahit ilang buwan ang lumipas na wala akong balita sa’yo, naha-high pa rin ako kapag nakikita ka. . .

Pero mas astig ka nung nanligaw ka…whoa…!!!!! Ang saya! Kala ko nga isa pa rin sa mga ilusyon ko eh, kaya ang tagal kong nag-isip. Pero partly, gusto kong ikaw ang mag-isip kung sigurado ka ba sa pinaggagawa mo. Baka kasi napilitan ka lang sa kakatukso ng mga barkada nating praning. Eh sobrang mahal kita, ayokong maging isang pagkakamali mo. I’m not afraid to be your girlfriend...I’m afraid to be your ex. Ikaw yung pinakahihintay ko buong buhay ko, aminado ko dun, pero I love you too much, it scares me. Buti na lang, di ka nainip. At buti na lang narindi na yung best friend ko tuwing sasabihin ko sa kanyang sobrang miss kita, naiiyak ako kung minsan. Alam niya kasing kahit kami pa ni ex eh may pagkabato talaga ko. Kaya nagugulantang siya sa kapraningan ko over you. To think, hindi pa tayo nung lagay na yun ah. . .

Isipin mo pa ngayon… na tayo na… whew! galing…kung minsan nga parang di pa rin ako makapaniwalang mahal mo pala talaga ko… After 7 long years, matutupad din pala pangarap kong akala ko isang malaking kahibangan. Kaya nga kahit sobrang dalang tayong magkita ngayon, tinitiis ko. Eh yung pitong taon nga na yun nakayanan ko, ngayon pa kayang libre na sa ‘kin yung ngiti mo na dati-rati ninanakaw ko?

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stars still shine: 10:00 PM

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Hey! Its been a week since I last posted. Its been soo busy and tiring. I was not here in Manila, last Thursday and Friday, nasa Biology Trip ako. i went to Bauan, Batangas. The place was soo beautiful, it was so peaceful and serenity is in the air. Though kinabahan kami nung Friday morning kasi nga, nagkakagulo dito sa Manila. well soo un, life went on for us. I do not want to expound kung anu anu ung nangyari sa Batangas, basta.... It was such a great experience and sana maka balik ako dun with friends/ family of course. Then last Saturday, I was just here sa house doing nothing...... as in nothing...... hahaha :D Well I was preparing for school nung Sunday night, but as you know school got cancelled. Now Monday, I was here inside the house nung morning then I went to Katipunan on the afternoon for our tutor. Then I met up with Lan and Mon, for there palancas. well yun then ung usual.... na aral sa LSC....... then thats it. sige po.... up to here na lng. bye bye!

Rica

stars still shine: 9:35 PM

[Monday, February 20, 2006]

LAst friday, it was our algebra exam. I don't want to comment on it since it might backfire on me. well any way.....moving on..... After school we went to Gayle's house and there we sang and sang sa magic sing nila. hahaha :D ang galing ni PUPU!!!

IDOL!!!!!

hahaha :D sooo un, after nun edi nag ayos ayos na kami. hahaha then nung nsa may harap na kami ng starbucks sa katipunan, nsa loob pa kami ng car nito, dumaan sila Charles, Joel, Biboy, and some one pa (sorry hindi ko kilala) then binababan ni Gayle ung window, and nag-hi siya. After nun, pagkababa na namin ng car, we met up with Mica, DJ, Erika D. sa may starbucks.

We went to Drews muna, bago pumunta sa Yellow cab. Ang haba ng linakad namin...... waaaaaaaaaaa ehhh naka heels pa kami nila Mica nun.... from dun sa may Drews hangang Yellow Cab naglakad kami. Nung nasa yellow cab na kami, dumating si Roy and his friend Paco. Sooo un kasama namin sila tapos dumaan si Mon and si Mark. soo hi hi kami ganyan. hahaha :D tapos nung dumating na ung pizza namin we have to go back. Buti na lng may car si Paco, so nag car kami papuntang Drews tapos naglakad si Roy and si Paco. Kasi ung car ni Paco, ung usual car lng ehhh 8 girls kami lahat. sooo 6 sa likod tapos ako and si Dj sa passenger seat.

THANKS PACO and ROY!!!

Then nung nsa Drews na kami hindi pa ako umiinom si Isay, Iya and Pauline pa lng. Then si Mica and Erika nag take lng ng isang shot. At the end of the night, na tipsy sila Isay and Pauline. nakakatawa sila, super duper kulit nila..... hahaha :D tapos na ka 6 shots ako ng gin (spiked siya) hahaha :D ang dami na nun, kasi second time ko pa lng nun ng paginum. hahaha :D buti na lng mild tipsy pa lng ako. hahaha :D before ako pumunta ng starbucks nagpunta muna ako ng Mcdo with Iya and Carlo A. then nilibre kami ni Carlo ng fries...

Thanks for the Fries!!!

After nung Mcdo, nagpunta na ako sa Starbucks tapos andun pala sila Dj, Mica, and Erika kasama nila si Roy. Sooo sumama ako saka nila dun. Then dumating na sila Isay, PAuline, Iya, Arlo, Carlo A., Toby and Pierre. hahaha :D then madami pa nangyari nun hangang sa umalis na ako..... soo unn. Un ang highlight ng weekend ko....

then

RED BULL WON THE CHAMPIONSHIP!!!!

well sige po up to here na lng muna

Rica

stars still shine: 10:30 PM

Darn right sucks. [Tuesday, February 14, 2006]

HAPPY VALENTINES!!!!

well its valentines day and mine sucks. its because of the very reason na the one person i really want to greet me this valentines day, did not. Most of my friends already greeted me, some were late but still they did. pero bakit ung mahal ko hindi parin. well its life, after all im just a friend.

some thing i realized a while ago was this..........

"There are no reasons for me, not to love you. But then there are reasons for me, to forget you and let go."

Rica

stars still shine: 6:56 PM

The past few days..... [Saturday, February 11, 2006]

ok soo the week was not exactly the fun week. I had alot of problems and frustration and I got paranoid again. I really like to go out right now and just shop and shop and shop till the end of time. I like to go out with my friends, and spend time with. Hopefully we will go out on Feb 14. We shall have our own "date" hahaha :D well till here.

Rica

stars still shine: 5:53 PM

Recap!!!! [Sunday, February 05, 2006]

hello!! Its sunday, and a lot of things have happened since my last post. weird? yes I know.

02.01.06

Its wednesday and I brought my digi cam in school. We took pictures of ourselves during breaktimes and during classes as well (mean? yes, we know) Though it was sad since Isay, was absent, and still we do not have a complete barkada pic. Until now, well sana magkaron na kami ng pic na complete kami. hahaha :D

02.02.06

Its Thursday, we received a sermon from Sir.Peralta for being sooo noisy, though I can't exactly blame him for that since we were indeed noisy, and we already crossed the line.We were just half day, since some parents will be having meetings with our teachers. Then when night came, i asked permission from my parents if I can go to a "friend's" party, and my dad just told me that, If I didn't receive any line of seven, I can go but if I did I must go home, straight from school. It sucks? yes I know. dreading the next day........

02.03.06

Its Friday, and its card day. The day that I have been waiting for. I was all over the place while waiting for the cards to be released to us, I cannot concentrate in what I was doing. When received our 3rd qt report cards, mine was just fine. I was glad that I didn't got any line of seven. And since I didn't get any line of seven, I can go to our soiree with 2-h of AHS. The soiree was great, though at first I wasn't enjoying. Eventually, I did enjoy and I most of the guys. The guys were not KJ and masaya sila kasama. The people in the party really mingled with each other. Dj you did a great job!!! hahaha :D After the party, I went home with Sam. doon ako nagpasundo sa house nila. Then I brought Isay home, since malapit lang siya sa akin nakatira. Then I went home na and went to bed.

02.04.06

First saturday, we went to Lipa, Batangas. I woke very early. After the mass, we went back na to Manila. We went to Katipunan, so that we can attend our tutorials. then we went home na. then nag away kami ng father ko. well actually, may kasalanan nga ako, but still its not entirely my fault noh.

02.05.06

Sunday, hindi parin kami naguusap ng dad ko. well sige po up to here na lang. Still have to read my AP and GAPO.

Rica

stars still shine: 6:30 PM

AHS Fair [Tuesday, January 31, 2006]

I went to the AHS Fair for the first time. I went with DJ, Isay, Mae, Ann Lor, Cristine, and Ikay. Gayle joined us when we got there, since she didn't go to school. Earlier that day, I wasn't supposed to go to the fair, but in the end......I decided to go...... and I went there in my uniform. Good thing that Gayle lent me a pair of jeans and shirt so I was able to change into casual attire. We were with Alex, and tres, then every now and then Arlo, Pierre and some guys would join us. Nakakatawa ung security dun sa Polaris, kasi super mag inspect nang gamit.......ultimo ballpen hindi pwede. Buti na lang hindi nakuha ung pilot pen ko, and then I already received Carlo's christmas gift. Its a pair of red earrings. Thanks for that. I didn't stay long since my parents did not knew that I will be going to the AHS fair. hahaha :D though it was too bad, I wasn't able to go to the Saturday fair. I just spent my saturday at home. My weekend was a boring one, i must say. Then Monday came...... we took our CEM exams, Eng and Reading were just fine but Math sucks!!! More than half of my answers in the test were just a guess. hahaha :D kasi ba naman, ang daming kung anu anung items and terms don na never heard sa aking mundo. hahaha :D Then Tuesday came, I got na Atan's gift. Thanks for that. Its a teddy bear with a calendar from Humor Post plus a 64 MB na MMC for cellphone. Well thats all... still have to study for a quiz in AP...... hahaha..... btw Card day na namin sa Thursday!!!! hahaha :D cge po up to here na lng tlga.. bye bye

Rica

stars still shine: 8:10 PM

For a Friend Again [Tuesday, January 24, 2006]

The letter below is for a friend, that I consider special.

Rica

January 24, 2006
Dear Joseph,

I miss you so much. I miss the times we talked for so long. The times we talked about our older siblings. I miss the times that we share our stories and problems. Though there are a lot of things I missed, I must learn to let go and forget. I must accept what is for me and what’s not for me. I must understand that there are things in this world that are not meant to be. I should just face the music that you and I are not made for each other. That it is only I, who lives in the world which I made for the two of us. It is only I who hopes that someday there will be an “us”. We will still stay as friends even though I will slowly go away. After all I will not fall for you if you were not my friend. It is just that there are things I must avoid right now in order to forget and learn to understand. Someday I shall move on, though I will still love you when that day finally arrives at least then I could face you and still say “I’ am really just your friend” without getting hurt. I hope someday we can be the best of friends after all we have a lot of things in common. Similarities that brought me to falling for you. From now on I must get used to watch UAAP without you to discuss it with. I must learn to study my lessons with out you in my mind to act as my inspiration. I must learn not to think of you when I’ am eating a slice of cheesecake. I will slowly fade away from your life without saying goodbye, for this is not an end for our wonderful friendship. It is simply a stop over so that I can make the wrong things that happened to once more the right one.

Renea “Rica” Camille C. Zuniga

stars still shine: 7:30 PM

Halu-halo [Saturday, January 21, 2006]

hahaha :D wonder why that title? because there were a lot of things that happened the past few days. so its already halu-halo!!! hahaha :D well anyway... we had our third quarterly exams...... I don't want to discuss it. hahaha :D though it was not that bad. Well any way, yesterday, it was the grade seven legacy concert and our soiree with 2-m of AHS. We went to the soiree first, before going back to Assumption for the Grade seven legacy concert. The soiree was just fine. I met some of them but it would have been a whole lot better if they were more sociable. The grade seven legacy concert was great, it was just too bad I was not able to watch the half of it since i was in the soiree earlier that night. We were only able to watch MYMP and Retrospect. MYMP was really good. It was soooo sad I was not able to watch Sam Concepcion!!!!!!! Oh well.... Then earlier this day, I went to school for the Asian Fest exhibit (China) i can already see a glimmer of hope in our exhibit. hahaha :D well up to here na lang!!! bye bye!!!

Rica

stars still shine: 11:15 PM

My day [Sunday, January 15, 2006]

hahaha :D I have a dull title for today. I woke up early this morning to go to mass, then we attended a family friend's funeral. Then we ate in Mc Donalds (Marikina). Then we went up the "mountain" the station of the cross. Then we went home na at magaaral na ako for my CLE and Health exams tom. hahaha :p cge up to here na lng!

Ciao!

Rica!

stars still shine: 4:15 PM

Destiny, sooo funny. [Saturday, January 14, 2006]

I just took my Algebra exam this morning and it was just fine compared to the usual exam our teacher give's us. We were already able to pass our Ip paper yesteray, ohhh yeahhh. Monday, first day of the final exams!!!! Well anyway, while I was doing something few days ago, I realized something. I realized that there is such thing as destiny and the right timing. hahaha :D know why I was able to say this? Last school year, I was still a first year student. Back then I was just a ordinary girl who is not confident and still has ALOT of insecurities within her. Then some girls in my class (1-4) arranged a soiree with a AHS class (1-G) during the afternoon. Unfortunately that soiree got cancelled for some reason, and every one was kinda furious with the 1-G guys since they cancelled the soiree, the morning of the day it self (don't know if that makes sense, sorry) Well anyway life continued for me after that, then we had another soiree but that was cancelled as well. We didn't have any soiree for the rest of the school year because of the first two that got cancelled. Then i got into second year, and I was in 2-4. Our first soiree was with AHS 2-B, the soiree was on July 9,2005. They were fun and nice but I wouldn't exactly say that I really got to be friends with them since we didn't really got close. Then a month after we had our second soiree. This time with AHS 2-C, it was held in Xavier Vil on August 19,2005. There were only a few of us who came at the soiree, but it was still fun and very entertaining. I really got close to the 2-c guys compared with the 2-B boys. Well anyway back to destiny etc..... during the soiree with 2-C, I was with some of my classmate (Sam, Dj, Isay,) we were sitting in the sofa at the living room area. Then there while we were talking we discovered that some of the 2-C guys were part of the 1-G class during their first year in highschool. So those guys were supposed to meet a year ealier, but we did not. I do not why, but its that. And its very funny. hahaha :D Well I shall end this post here.

Rica

stars still shine: 1:10 AM

Good but still bad [Thursday, January 12, 2006]

It was such a great day in school today. I spent my time with friends. We talked and shared stories about things. I had a great time in short, yet when I' am left alone or even if I' am with them I still remember the "what could have been?" If did not stop courting me on the day I will answer him, What are we now? Even though I already met new guys, I still remember him. Even though I already like or love someone else, I still remember him and what could have been. Why is it so hard to forget the one you have love? Evwn though you were hurt very deeply, you still feel something for that person. It is so hard to love someone because the more that you somebody the deeper the wound would be.

Rica

stars still shine: 5:59 PM

For a Friend [Wednesday, January 11, 2006]

The past few days have been a hectic one. My days were great but of course there were its down right depressing moments that you'd rather not live. I have been busy doing my school work and studying for upcoming Unit test this week. We just finished our Biology exam this morning, I do not want to discuss it since it might backfire to me. Then this Friday I will be taking the dreaded Algebra exam. Then next week we will already have our final exams for the third quarter. Then on friday next week, we might have a soiree with 2-M of AHS. There is a letter posted below, it is for a special friend named Joseph.

Rica

Date Written: January 10, 2005

Dear Joseph,

I’ am just fifteen and still in school. I have a lot more to experience, learn and understand, yet I fell in love unexpectedly. What I thought is a smooth friendship path suddenly changes for me, since now I do not only see you as my friend but also the one whom I love. Though I have said it is only friendship that I sought, I still hope that someday you will also love me. You are a great friend and all yet I feel that sometimes I ’am rejected, ,and still I ‘am here even though I get hurt a lot of times. When ever you share stories to me I feel happy because I get to know you more but sometimes those stories rip my heart into pieces. Though I get hurt in the journey of loving you (yes that was very cheesy; I know.), I cannot do anything for I ’am simply a friend for you. I do not even have the right to get hurt because you do not know how I feel for you, but I still do. Weird isn’t it? Though you do not want to, you still do.

stars still shine: 11:40 PM

Nothing more [Saturday, January 07, 2006]

The story below was written by a friend who wishes to stay anonymous. She wrote this story based on her personal experience. I tried persuading her, so that I can include her name on the author but she says "the story is a bit personal, I do not want to risk revealing my self". Well my friend, Thank for allowing me to post your story here in my blog. Thank You :D

Rica

Date written: January 05, 2006
Author: Anonymous
Title: Nothing More

In a party we first met. It was there our friendship began. Amongst you guys whom I met during the party, you were the first one I became close to. Though we did not talk that much after the party, we became closer every time we have the chance or time to talk with each other. In the beginning you were just like everyone else, a friend. Then I got to know you more. I discovered that we have a lot of things in common. Your closeness with your sibling, the UAAP, the cheesecake, movies and play station games are just few of the things we have in common. I did not realize as I spend time with you that you are becoming special in my eyes. As I got to know you, I also got to know some of your friends, of course they were also the ones who were in the party. Though I got very close to a few of them, it is still you that is special. Then one of the guys started courting me, I entertained him since it is the only right thing and I haven’t realized it yet who you are for me. I entertained the thought of him and me having a more than a friend relationship but after some months of courting he chose to stop it, and from then on I finally realized who you are in my life. You are not just a friend any more but you are also the one whom I have fallen in love to.

I did not expect for any of this to happen for when I first met you guys, I did not like any body. All were simply a friend for me, but I guess as I got to know you I also fell for you.

Now that I already know who you are in my life, I just want to tell you that it is only friendship that I seek and nothing else. We started as friends and I’ am contended being your friend. I do not ask for some thing deeper since I feel it is only friendship that you can offer and nothing more.

stars still shine: 6:30 PM

A Letter [Friday, January 06, 2006]

The letter below is for some one who became a big part of my life. I wrote that letter as an end for everything.

November 22, 2005

Dear Eric,

Hello! Good Evening!

I do not know why, I’ am typing this letter when you will never be able to read it. I don’t know maybe I just want to express my feelings once and for all, even though you’ll never know what this letter contains.

July 10, 2005 you told me that you love me. At first I didn’t believed what you said. Oh well, you asked me if you can court me, of course I said yes, after all I must give every one a chance right? Almost a month after, August 5, 2005 I answered you with a yes, but you gave up that same day, you let me fall when you will not be there in the end. I cried after that, I gave my trust to you and yet you broke it. You made me believe in lies, you made me believe that you will always be there and you will never leave me. You made me believe that you are an honest person. You made me believe that you indeed love me, but then I guess four years of friendship will never be enough for you to say that you know the person. The length of the friendship of two people will never be enough for you to say that you know that person because you will never really know the person until you spend more time with that person or be with that person in different circumstances. Eric, I guess I’ am stupid to believe in every thing that you said. I’ am stupid for letting my self fall. I’ am stupid for trusting you. Well now I cannot say, every thing has completely healed and mended, but I can say, I’ am already over you. Though my trust in a relationship still needs to be mended, and that will take a long time, I must say. At least now I do not cry and think of you any more. Well fine I still think of you, the million and one possibilities of what ifs, but at least I do not shed tears for you any more, after all your not worth it of my precious tears. Well here I shall end my letter. The letter you will never read. A letter which I made, especially for you. Thank you Eric, Thank you for showing me a world which I hope will never be part of again.

Renea Camille C. Zuniga

stars still shine: 7:09 PM

I know [Thursday, January 05, 2006]

I know that in my previous blog, I promised that I shall be consistent with my posts and updates, well I got tired of that blog so I made a new one. This time I don't want a lot of people to know about this blog. I don't know why, maybe it is because I know I shall be posting things here which are a bit personal than the normal things. Well I shall end this post here for now.

Rica

stars still shine: 3:26 AM

Trial Only [Wednesday, January 04, 2006]

Trial only

stars still shine: 6:52 AM