*a girl's diary*

stars still shine: 8:10 PM

For a Friend Again [Tuesday, January 24, 2006]

The letter below is for a friend, that I consider special.

Rica

January 24, 2006
Dear Joseph,

I miss you so much. I miss the times we talked for so long. The times we talked about our older siblings. I miss the times that we share our stories and problems. Though there are a lot of things I missed, I must learn to let go and forget. I must accept what is for me and what’s not for me. I must understand that there are things in this world that are not meant to be. I should just face the music that you and I are not made for each other. That it is only I, who lives in the world which I made for the two of us. It is only I who hopes that someday there will be an “us”. We will still stay as friends even though I will slowly go away. After all I will not fall for you if you were not my friend. It is just that there are things I must avoid right now in order to forget and learn to understand. Someday I shall move on, though I will still love you when that day finally arrives at least then I could face you and still say “I’ am really just your friend” without getting hurt. I hope someday we can be the best of friends after all we have a lot of things in common. Similarities that brought me to falling for you. From now on I must get used to watch UAAP without you to discuss it with. I must learn to study my lessons with out you in my mind to act as my inspiration. I must learn not to think of you when I’ am eating a slice of cheesecake. I will slowly fade away from your life without saying goodbye, for this is not an end for our wonderful friendship. It is simply a stop over so that I can make the wrong things that happened to once more the right one.

Renea “Rica” Camille C. Zuniga

stars still shine: 7:30 PM

Halu-halo [Saturday, January 21, 2006]

hahaha :D wonder why that title? because there were a lot of things that happened the past few days. so its already halu-halo!!! hahaha :D well anyway... we had our third quarterly exams...... I don't want to discuss it. hahaha :D though it was not that bad. Well any way, yesterday, it was the grade seven legacy concert and our soiree with 2-m of AHS. We went to the soiree first, before going back to Assumption for the Grade seven legacy concert. The soiree was just fine. I met some of them but it would have been a whole lot better if they were more sociable. The grade seven legacy concert was great, it was just too bad I was not able to watch the half of it since i was in the soiree earlier that night. We were only able to watch MYMP and Retrospect. MYMP was really good. It was soooo sad I was not able to watch Sam Concepcion!!!!!!! Oh well.... Then earlier this day, I went to school for the Asian Fest exhibit (China) i can already see a glimmer of hope in our exhibit. hahaha :D well up to here na lang!!! bye bye!!!

Rica

stars still shine: 11:15 PM

My day [Sunday, January 15, 2006]

hahaha :D I have a dull title for today. I woke up early this morning to go to mass, then we attended a family friend's funeral. Then we ate in Mc Donalds (Marikina). Then we went up the "mountain" the station of the cross. Then we went home na at magaaral na ako for my CLE and Health exams tom. hahaha :p cge up to here na lng!

Ciao!

Rica!

stars still shine: 4:15 PM

Destiny, sooo funny. [Saturday, January 14, 2006]

I just took my Algebra exam this morning and it was just fine compared to the usual exam our teacher give's us. We were already able to pass our Ip paper yesteray, ohhh yeahhh. Monday, first day of the final exams!!!! Well anyway, while I was doing something few days ago, I realized something. I realized that there is such thing as destiny and the right timing. hahaha :D know why I was able to say this? Last school year, I was still a first year student. Back then I was just a ordinary girl who is not confident and still has ALOT of insecurities within her. Then some girls in my class (1-4) arranged a soiree with a AHS class (1-G) during the afternoon. Unfortunately that soiree got cancelled for some reason, and every one was kinda furious with the 1-G guys since they cancelled the soiree, the morning of the day it self (don't know if that makes sense, sorry) Well anyway life continued for me after that, then we had another soiree but that was cancelled as well. We didn't have any soiree for the rest of the school year because of the first two that got cancelled. Then i got into second year, and I was in 2-4. Our first soiree was with AHS 2-B, the soiree was on July 9,2005. They were fun and nice but I wouldn't exactly say that I really got to be friends with them since we didn't really got close. Then a month after we had our second soiree. This time with AHS 2-C, it was held in Xavier Vil on August 19,2005. There were only a few of us who came at the soiree, but it was still fun and very entertaining. I really got close to the 2-c guys compared with the 2-B boys. Well anyway back to destiny etc..... during the soiree with 2-C, I was with some of my classmate (Sam, Dj, Isay,) we were sitting in the sofa at the living room area. Then there while we were talking we discovered that some of the 2-C guys were part of the 1-G class during their first year in highschool. So those guys were supposed to meet a year ealier, but we did not. I do not why, but its that. And its very funny. hahaha :D Well I shall end this post here.

Rica

stars still shine: 1:10 AM

Good but still bad [Thursday, January 12, 2006]

It was such a great day in school today. I spent my time with friends. We talked and shared stories about things. I had a great time in short, yet when I' am left alone or even if I' am with them I still remember the "what could have been?" If did not stop courting me on the day I will answer him, What are we now? Even though I already met new guys, I still remember him. Even though I already like or love someone else, I still remember him and what could have been. Why is it so hard to forget the one you have love? Evwn though you were hurt very deeply, you still feel something for that person. It is so hard to love someone because the more that you somebody the deeper the wound would be.

Rica

stars still shine: 5:59 PM

For a Friend [Wednesday, January 11, 2006]

The past few days have been a hectic one. My days were great but of course there were its down right depressing moments that you'd rather not live. I have been busy doing my school work and studying for upcoming Unit test this week. We just finished our Biology exam this morning, I do not want to discuss it since it might backfire to me. Then this Friday I will be taking the dreaded Algebra exam. Then next week we will already have our final exams for the third quarter. Then on friday next week, we might have a soiree with 2-M of AHS. There is a letter posted below, it is for a special friend named Joseph.

Rica

Date Written: January 10, 2005

Dear Joseph,

I’ am just fifteen and still in school. I have a lot more to experience, learn and understand, yet I fell in love unexpectedly. What I thought is a smooth friendship path suddenly changes for me, since now I do not only see you as my friend but also the one whom I love. Though I have said it is only friendship that I sought, I still hope that someday you will also love me. You are a great friend and all yet I feel that sometimes I ’am rejected, ,and still I ‘am here even though I get hurt a lot of times. When ever you share stories to me I feel happy because I get to know you more but sometimes those stories rip my heart into pieces. Though I get hurt in the journey of loving you (yes that was very cheesy; I know.), I cannot do anything for I ’am simply a friend for you. I do not even have the right to get hurt because you do not know how I feel for you, but I still do. Weird isn’t it? Though you do not want to, you still do.

stars still shine: 11:40 PM

Nothing more [Saturday, January 07, 2006]

The story below was written by a friend who wishes to stay anonymous. She wrote this story based on her personal experience. I tried persuading her, so that I can include her name on the author but she says "the story is a bit personal, I do not want to risk revealing my self". Well my friend, Thank for allowing me to post your story here in my blog. Thank You :D

Rica

Date written: January 05, 2006
Author: Anonymous
Title: Nothing More

In a party we first met. It was there our friendship began. Amongst you guys whom I met during the party, you were the first one I became close to. Though we did not talk that much after the party, we became closer every time we have the chance or time to talk with each other. In the beginning you were just like everyone else, a friend. Then I got to know you more. I discovered that we have a lot of things in common. Your closeness with your sibling, the UAAP, the cheesecake, movies and play station games are just few of the things we have in common. I did not realize as I spend time with you that you are becoming special in my eyes. As I got to know you, I also got to know some of your friends, of course they were also the ones who were in the party. Though I got very close to a few of them, it is still you that is special. Then one of the guys started courting me, I entertained him since it is the only right thing and I haven’t realized it yet who you are for me. I entertained the thought of him and me having a more than a friend relationship but after some months of courting he chose to stop it, and from then on I finally realized who you are in my life. You are not just a friend any more but you are also the one whom I have fallen in love to.

I did not expect for any of this to happen for when I first met you guys, I did not like any body. All were simply a friend for me, but I guess as I got to know you I also fell for you.

Now that I already know who you are in my life, I just want to tell you that it is only friendship that I seek and nothing else. We started as friends and I’ am contended being your friend. I do not ask for some thing deeper since I feel it is only friendship that you can offer and nothing more.

stars still shine: 6:30 PM

A Letter [Friday, January 06, 2006]

The letter below is for some one who became a big part of my life. I wrote that letter as an end for everything.

November 22, 2005

Dear Eric,

Hello! Good Evening!

I do not know why, I’ am typing this letter when you will never be able to read it. I don’t know maybe I just want to express my feelings once and for all, even though you’ll never know what this letter contains.

July 10, 2005 you told me that you love me. At first I didn’t believed what you said. Oh well, you asked me if you can court me, of course I said yes, after all I must give every one a chance right? Almost a month after, August 5, 2005 I answered you with a yes, but you gave up that same day, you let me fall when you will not be there in the end. I cried after that, I gave my trust to you and yet you broke it. You made me believe in lies, you made me believe that you will always be there and you will never leave me. You made me believe that you are an honest person. You made me believe that you indeed love me, but then I guess four years of friendship will never be enough for you to say that you know the person. The length of the friendship of two people will never be enough for you to say that you know that person because you will never really know the person until you spend more time with that person or be with that person in different circumstances. Eric, I guess I’ am stupid to believe in every thing that you said. I’ am stupid for letting my self fall. I’ am stupid for trusting you. Well now I cannot say, every thing has completely healed and mended, but I can say, I’ am already over you. Though my trust in a relationship still needs to be mended, and that will take a long time, I must say. At least now I do not cry and think of you any more. Well fine I still think of you, the million and one possibilities of what ifs, but at least I do not shed tears for you any more, after all your not worth it of my precious tears. Well here I shall end my letter. The letter you will never read. A letter which I made, especially for you. Thank you Eric, Thank you for showing me a world which I hope will never be part of again.

Renea Camille C. Zuniga

stars still shine: 7:09 PM

I know [Thursday, January 05, 2006]

I know that in my previous blog, I promised that I shall be consistent with my posts and updates, well I got tired of that blog so I made a new one. This time I don't want a lot of people to know about this blog. I don't know why, maybe it is because I know I shall be posting things here which are a bit personal than the normal things. Well I shall end this post here for now.

Rica

stars still shine: 3:26 AM

Trial Only [Wednesday, January 04, 2006]

Trial only

stars still shine: 6:52 AM